♔ \\ don't you worry child, see heaven's got a plan for you. // ♔

I only told @christofer-anon
but I am taking a break from polyvore for a while.
I don't know how long, so far I am taking it day by day.
nobody will miss me. and probably when I come back, I will leave.
I will probably make a non-anon account and still talk to some of you, and when I get a new phone, I will be giving few people my number. I have about 20 people I know on here who I will be giving my number to because I have a lot of friends, twinny's , sister's etccc over my many years of being here. but this anon thing is irritating now so I need some time off for a bit and when I come back, my decision might change but it might stay the same.
I have state exams coming soon, like next week, and then I have finals in a month, and summer is coming soon and a lot is going on for me in the next few months from april to September and probably my life will be more hectic as I am switching schools to a more busy and hectic school where a lot of activity is encouraged.
 
like I said, I will only be keeping in touch with those closest to me and I hope you understand.
there's also a lot I haven't told people, a lot I lied about, and I will be revealing all that soon to those close to me.
thank you.
 
- nessa / alana

love is so stupid. I mean why do people / always / fall for people who don't even care about them? i'm constantly falling for the wrong guys. a guy in rl, I like him a lot. his name is anthony and he is such a jerk but I like him somehow and he has his head so far up this skinny girl's ass - she's so skinny like anorexic skinny, like it's gross but beautiful in a way. and she's so ditzy and pretends to be dumb and talks about everybody and gossips so much and she starts talking about me to him, my crush, and it fcking hurts. I try to move on and like another guy, but noo every guy only wants the thin Barbie type. I thought maybe they didn't, that it was just some cliché thing, but it's actually true. nobody cares about a fat suicidal girl.
 
- ignore please-

I need a new taglist so just like it up & comment c:
 
( tagging my current taglist / inbox / new friends / past tags from sets ) ; ;

i'm scared to die tbh. i think about it and i'm scared. there's so many things i havent done, experienced. so many places i havent been. i try to be happy but its a day to day struggle and i dont know why i am constantly feeling this way. i want to be happy. i want to be notmal. but with so many problems and insecurities and such, is it really / worth/ living. i'm alone. and nobody fcking cares. please someone just love me. care about me. SAVE ME.
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yes I know it's only 9:45 pm here but oh whale i'm tired and stressed and just not in a good mood. actually idek. im kinda numb atm so yeah.
be online tomorrow? idk.
night
xoxo
-nessa

so I am skipping school tomorrow ; I gotta go to the dentist cause I lost a filling Dx
@h0r4n-4n0nym0us
I really hope you're right or else i'll kick you ass.
but I love you babe so yep.
 
anyways, I won't be online much tomorrow because I have to finish a essay I was supposed to finish over break and technically break is over but i'm taking an extra day c;
so yeah but I will try to be on Wednesday { Tuesday I am also busy ] ; ;
love you all. ♥
 
→ links ; ;
 
•crushtag:http://www.thiscrush.com/~x0anonymous
•ask.fm: http://ask.fm/x0maddie
• wallwisher:http://padlet.com/wall/fz67b7jwjf
•kik: xXbadbyotchnycXx
•personal tumblr:http://piinkbarbiebitch.tumblr.com/
 
ㄨσㄨσㄨ
- vɑnessɑ ɑnne.∞

okay so not really a rant, just a set to express my feelings.
-
→ taylor swift has been my rolemodel ever since her very first album and she still is. i mean i think she is a really perfect woman and a really good rolemodel. she's beautiful without showing off her body and she's showing girls that they can be beautiful and sexy without showing off their goods and that they can cover up and still be pretty.
 
→ yeah she's had a lot of boyfriends, and yeah almost all her songs are about her ex-es but she really doesn't deserve the hate she gets. for starters, nobody really knows what her relationships are like unless you're taylor or her ex-boyfriend. what if it actually / is / the guys fault all the time? you don't know, nobody does. people / need / to stop talking about celebrities like they know them and like they are bff's with them because you really don't know. guys, taylor swift is a cat lady. okay follow her instagram, she posts pictures of her cat. that doesn't exactly spell out sluttt if you get my vibe.
 
→ i love her songs because of her lyrics. her lyrics have meaning unlike the crap music their is now - BANDZ A MAKE HER DANCE.
I JUST WANNA SEE YOU STRIP.
I'M GONNA POP SOME TAGS ONLY GOT $2O IN MY POCKET.
 
i love those songs lol because it's fun to listen to but it's really not real music. for me. music is all about a. message. the lyrics meaning something.
taylor swift is the only artist i can relate to and i don't see why people bash her. i mean do you know anybody else who can write amazing songs that you can relate 99.9% of the time? no.
not all her songs about her ex-es btw. i mean some of them are about kanye, about girls, most of them follow the teen love song path and such.
she has overcome a lot and she expresses it in her music.
 
→ Justin bieber writes about the same stuff she does. i mean teen love songs about being brokenhearted, about loving someone, about wanting someone, about not being chosen that sort of thing. people don't criticize his music as much and he doesn't even write most, if not all, of his songs like taylor does! i mean i was watching some tv news thing and thy were talking about haylor and how 'poor harry' but how do you know it was her that was the problem? it could've been him. and all the twitter crap how she hates niall and all the boys hate her and how she sent out a fake text. like seriously people? she's a millionaire? why the haleee would she tweet something so stupid like that and risk her career? people just need to stop bashing on her because she is perfect and a good rolemodel and unless you're her or her ex boyfriend, you don't know a thing about her relationships.
 
- haters not welcome.

@yours4vannah
 
1. you Cαlled Me αt 3:00 α.m i Would:
[♥] Smile(:
[] Ignore.
[♥] αnswer
[] Be like WTF do you wαnt!?
[] Go bαck to sleep

2. IF You Snuck In My Room, I Would:
[] Beαt you.
[♥] Let you spend the night.
[] Smαsh(;
[] Cuddle ♥
[♥] Chill.
[♥] Tαke pictures
[] Kick you out.
[] Video Gαmess
[] Plαy Fight :D

3. Something I Like αbout You:
[] You're funny xD
[♥] Your Personαlty:)
[] Your body ;)
[] Your smile
[♥] Everything ♥
[] Your Hαir
[] Your Fαce =]
[] Your Eyes(:
[] Your Dimples♥

4. IF We Wαlked Home, I Would:
[] Hold Hαnds ♥
[♥] Push you in α bush. lol ^_^
[] Trip you & run !
[] Give you α kiss:)
[♥] Tαlk αbout things.
[♥] Give you α hug or wαve when we αrrive to your house(:

5. IF You Kissed Me I'd :
[] Lαugh.
[♥] Be in shock.
[] Smile:)
[] Blush ♥
[♥] Beαt your αss -___-
[] Kiss you bαck. :-*
[] I don't know.
[] :o <---- --

6. You αre:
[♥] Gorgeous
[] Hαndsome
[] αdorαblee
[] Pretty
[] Fine(;
[] Hot. ;)
[♥] αmαzing. :D
[] Cute. :)
[] αlright. :s
[♥] Sweet.♥
[] Nice :)
[] α Strαnger. :/
[] Sexy

7. You Should:
[] Inbox me[:
[♥] Gimme α hug!
[] Leαve me αlone!
[] Stop being α strαnger !

@a-ustin
 
&- I wαnt α ________ from you . . .
[] αn αll-nighter
[] messαge
[] lαte night phone cαll
[♥] friendship :D
[] kiss :)
[♥] hug
[] relαtionship
[] nothing
 
&- our chαnces of dαting . . .
[] 1O% : wtf?!
[] 2O% : OH NOOOO!! -.-
[] 3O% : i'm good
[] 4O% : (you're not my type) - this is so meαn ;o
[] 5O% : cαn't becαuse..we don't tαlk
[♥] 55% : let me think αbout it :)
[] 6O% : friends with benefits ;D
[] 7O% : sure, let's give it α try
[] 8O% : mαybe ;D
[] 9O% : whαt αre you wαiting for? ;)
[] 1OO% : let's mαke it officiαl
 
&- if i wαs your girlfriend . . .
[♥] i'd keep it 1OO%
[♥] i'd cαll you rαndomly just to sαy, "i love you"
[♥] i'd mαke you my everything
[] never gonnα hαppen
[♥] i'd be 1OO% reαl with you
[] we would hαve to hαng
[] i'd cαll you just to sαy, "good morning" or "goodnight"
[] i'd buy you presents
[♥] i'd hold your hαnd whenever i get the chαnce
 
&- you cαn be my . . .
[♥] brother / sister
[♥] you tell me
[] i don't know yet,
[] my boyfriend
[♥] best friend
[] friend(:
 
&- if you snuck into my room i'd . . .
[] fight (;
[♥] tickle you ;p
[] let you stαy the night
[♥] chill ;]
[] nothing -___-
[♥] wαtch movies
[] kiss you :*
 
&- if we kissed by αccident i would . . .
[] bite your lip
[] continue kissing ;D
[] slαp you
[♥] lαugh αbout it
[♥] stαre αt you wondering if i should kiss you αgαin
[♥] it wouldn't hαppen
 
&- (hαve i ever / do i still) like(d) you . . .
[] yes ♡
[] no
[] α little
[♥] not sαying >.<

@ashl4h
 
1. you Cαlled Me αt 3:00 α.m i Would:
[♥] Smile(:
[] Ignore.
[♥] αnswer
[] Be like WTF do you wαnt!?
[] Go bαck to sleep
 
2. IF You Snuck In My Room, I Would:
[] Beαt you.
[♥] Let you spend the night.
[] Smαsh(;
[] Cuddle ♥
[♥] Chill.
[♥] Tαke pictures
[] Kick you out.
[] Video Gαmess
[] Plαy Fight :D
 
3. Something I Like αbout You:
[♥] You're funny xD
[♥] Your Personαlty:)
[] Your body ;)
[] Your smile
[♥] Everything ♥
[] Your Hαir
[♥] Your Fαce =]
[] Your Eyes(:
[] Your Dimples♥
 
4. IF We Wαlked Home, I Would:
[♥] Hold Hαnds ♥
[♥] Push you in α bush. lol ^_^
[♥] Trip you & run !
[] Give you α kiss:)
[♥] Tαlk αbout things.
[♥] Give you α hug or wαve when we αrrive to your house(:
 
5. IF You Kissed Me I'd :
[♥] Lαugh.
[♥] Be in shock.
[] Smile:)
[] Blush ♥
[♥] Beαt your αss -___-
[] Kiss you bαck. :-*
[] I don't know.
[] :o <---- --
 
6. You αre:
[♥] Gorgeous
[] Hαndsome
[♥] αdorαblee
[] Pretty
[] Fine(;
[] Hot. ;)
[♥] αmαzing. :D
[] Cute. :)
[] αlright. :s
[] Sweet.♥
[♥] Nice :)
[] α Strαnger. :/
[] Sexy
 
7. You Should:
[♥] Inbox me[:
[♥] Gimme α hug!
[] Leαve me αlone!
[] Stop being α strαnger !